I have used up all of myself today.
Exhausted all of my resources and pulled out extra efforts
Like super powers.
Did I do good things today?
Yes I did.
Did I speak and eat and meet up with friends?
Did I laugh and love and be loved and feel love and wish love for everyone and everything…?
Yes, I did.
That was me.
Was I listening, absorbing,
analyzing and reforming,
Exploring the scenery,
waking up my energies…?
Indeed.
I’ve seen myself change,
No longer living wet and dazed,
193 days away from burning liquor,
The 3 litre piss box that made me feel sicker,
And sicker……
and sicker…
The quicker I get to the farthest away from there,
the better.
I used up all of myself today,
But I hope I managed to give you
a well needed top up.
Dead Brown Bird 
I love this meditation, and the strange, “a well needed top up” – I don’t know what it means, exactly, but the vulnerability of that line is clear and precise to me.
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Thank you. I guess with the last bit i was implying about how people can carry negativity with them , but expect/want an optimistic injection so as to fill their hypothetical glass 🙂
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love it
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